Mommy's a Mess

**Warning - Long, Wordy Post! Writing it was my therapy for a BAD week***

June is here and it is off to a ROUGH start. Let me just say that last Wednesday I had all my “appointments” written down on the wrong day. Tuesday night I swept, mopped and vacuumed only find that the family calendar indicated Mariela was scheduled to come clean the next day. Fortunately, it worked out – when I called her and she had me down for the next Wednesday. Then I head to Target to meet the ECI social worker who is evaluating Luke’s “fascination” with doors/toilets. Mind you I had to skip his nap time for this 1 o’clock appointment. We planned to meet at Starbucks in the front of the store, the Starbucks right next to the automatic doors – his new favorite doors. I made the mistake of letting him walk into the store with me so as we waited he would sneak off and then sprint thru the double doors, turn around and sprint back. He completely scared the older customers who thought he was headed for the street. I waited as long as I could then pulled out my envelope of coupons (several products had manufacturer AND store coupons…I got a huge bag of Snyder pretzels for $.29). It was the most annoying shopping trip EVER….pick out sunscreen…head up to Starbucks to see if she arrived…head back for wet ones and Ziploc baggies…head back to Starbucks… I managed to do this for 45 minutes before finally calling her. Funny…she had me down for next Wednesday too.

So I have decided to read the Twilight series. Yes, I know I am like 5 years behind the times, but I wanted a light read (the last book I read was about a suicide pact) and I have the entire series on my bookshelf. I’m on chapter 4 and it’s starting to get entertaining but I should be finished with the book since it’s like on a 6th grade reading level. My problem is that I only carve out time to read before bed when my brain has shut down or when I’m on the elliptical machine. Well, this brings me to how things are going at the gym. Lifetime Fitness is KICKING MY BUTT! I am so sore today, it HURTS! Michael has gone 7 days in a row and he’s doing great! I made it there 4 days last week. This last class I took, “Total Body Conditioning” made my face as red as my shirt, my heart rate must have been in zone 4 or 5 and I felt as if I’d pass out. At one point I made the decision to just remove myself from the class for a few minutes. I did not want these hard core gym junkies getting ticked off that I was half assing it. I’m pathetic! I wish they would just make the classes less intense. I am not a fitness pro, people!!! I am a mom of 2 who considers it a good day if I even get to the gym. Please don’t make my heart explode!

Well, after another day of having a headache and just feeling BLAH, I realized it could be due to the removal of my IUD last Thursday. I did some research and found the Internet crazies call it the “Mirena Crash”. So surprised at how many forums there are for people to complain about their birth control. I am hoping the back/neck pain, overall achiness and headaches go away soon. These symptoms combined with those from taking Claritin D = NOT pretty. Hoping my body adjusts fast!

I've figured out that the summer free time is just making me nervous. The kids are already bickering and it’s so difficult to do anything for more than 2 minutes before having to play referee. Luke always wants what Hannah has, Hannah does not share and often antagonizes then Luke hits and gets put in the corner (time out) where he sits for a total of 5 seconds before running in and grinning at me like the Grinch. Then after a few times of this, I have to carry his 28 lb body up 16 stairs and put him in his crib while he screams for his “gigi” (blanket). I can see this situation will repeat itself about 20 times a day. About the only thing they know how to play together is 1) chase and 2) jump off the couch and tackle each other. I’m also stressed because I want to make sure Hannah doesn't lose what she’s learned in kindergarten. Apparently she tested as “gifted and talented” so somehow I have to keep her challenged and thinking.

Oh and I can’t forget to mention that Hannah has woken up 4 nights in a row for various reasons. Night 1 – bad dream so we let her in bed with us. Michael couldn’t go back to sleep so he worked from 2:30 am – 4:30 am and then went to the gym. Night 2 – growing pains and lots of crying. Night 3 - we were reading and she just crawled up beside me and laid her head on my tummy fast asleep. Not sure if she was even woke up for this. Night 4 – she came in crying said she had thrown up in the guest bathroom. So I made a pallet on the floor next to me. Sooo strange! It’s always some sleep issue between the two kids.

On top of all of this we are leaving on Friday to attend a huge family gathering in Conroe. Why am I stressing? Oh yeah….I have to somehow find the time to get a pedicure, get cute outfits together for us all (because I dress the entire family), purchase a graduation/birthday gift, a retirement gift, a house warming gift and stuff for a scrapbook, find boarding for the dog, get his kennel cough shot in addition to going to work, entertaining the kids and all of the normal household responsibilities.

As Luke would way, “Mommy’s a Mess!”